Heart aches

I am happy that my buddy finally get together with the gal he like but at the same time. This friendship really breaks my heart deeply.. We plan to have a guy's day tml at his house.. but it end up that he dun wan me to go..

becos there is 1 group of ppl who wants to go to his house also.. those ppl dun really like me.. therefore, my friend hint me that hope i dun go.. my heart really aches.. if he let me make the decision i won't be so upset.. it is that he hint me very obviously.. why he also treat me like that.. sometimes i think wat am i to other ppl.. An item.. when u need me then u used me and want me to accompany u.. when u dun need me dun even wan to see me.. We are such good buddies and it ends up that he hint me like that.. Really nothing to say..